I suddenly realized something about myself in that moment that I felt like I had been suppressing for over two decades of my life - because I thought I only could have one choice. On the screen, I realized I loved this movie because I have a crush on this actress and maybe it was the tequila - but does this mean I’m gay? It was a lot to process: I was drunk, I was at my ex boyfriend’s house, and I was having this inner monologue. So what do I do? I went outside after it had just snowed, sat on his front step and looked above my head to a porch decorated in Christmas lights, and I just cried.
Through the years I've realized there are three kinds of people out there: 1. Ones that love Christmas music and will start playing it as soon as they possibly can. 2. Ones that tolerate it, but only when (and I mean ONLY when) Christmas is a few days away. 3. Ones that cringe at the sound of it.
Sometimes revisiting the past through music can help us to appreciate where we are in the present.
by Tray TaylorIG: @allusiontoreality Poetry has always held a special place in my heart. Somewhere out there exists a notebook of poetry that I wrote in middle school. I’m pretty sure in one of those poems I compared the crush I had on my middle school boyfriend to having a vanilla ice cream cone with … Continue reading An Ode to Mary Oliver
Music has been and will always be a big part of my life - and I fully believe sharing music is one of the most intimate things people can do.
No wonder the first time I was brought to a Showtunes Sunday in the Gayborhood I felt like I was at my home away from home. In reality I was just on the top floor at Tavern on Camac, squished like a sardine between a gaggle of gays who had all just got done a full day of Stonewall kickball.
What does it mean to chase your dreams? Does it mean you don’t have a plan B? or does it mean you make a promise to yourself to just never stop pursuing what you dream of – no matter what age you are.
I am a lover of music, pop culture, books, and many things that most folks don’t particularly know about me. So far, that is what I have been sharing on this blog - sharing pieces of myself & the things I love. And I think that is how I will continue – for now.
I can't be the only one who has felt topsy-turvy over the past few weeks. This year has been a year I am allowing myself to feel those kinds of feelings, but I am regretful that my weekly blog posting has suffered because of it.
Whenever it rains, especially for consecutive days - I always wish I was living in Seattle. I sometimes ponder to myself, if I have to deal with rainy days - why can’t it be in my favorite city?